Have you ever felt like you were not where you wanted to be?

I cannot tell you how many times I have thought, I wish I was there, wish I was doing that. The reality I’ve come to see is that no matter what it is I’d rather be doing, if I’m not content with where God places me, if I always want to be at the next step in His plan, I’ll never be content.

As most of you know, Manuel and I have a heart to reach this generation of leaders inside and outside of America. Most of you also know that Manuel has been blessed with an amazing job that allows him to do just that. He is the intern direct at Global Passion Ministries and more recently has partnered with Book of Hope (now One Hope) to take on their interns as well. What that will end up looking like we have yet to see, but its exciting none the less. His job not only allows him to make training this generation his top priority, but allows him to travel both in the US and abroad leading students into a deeper relationship with God. As you can imagine this is something only God could have orchestrated and Manuel and I are SO excited for where we are headed in the future of the internship, as God NEVER ceases to surprise us.

I have been privileged to help out as much as I can getting the interns prepped for their 2nd year of training overseas, but as you can imagine, my heart is divided between my two jobs (I also work part time at a local tax firm). I love the people I’m with, they remind me each day that God loves people in America just as much as those in India, Africa, or anywhere else. I have had many opportunities to share my testimony and that just increases my desire to impact my workplace all the more. I do, however, often have that feeling that I want to be in ministry full time. Manuel and I have frequently talked over the reasons why or what we need to do to change my situation…but we always conclude that we are right were we need to be and the Lord will move me when He sees fit and we’ll have no doubt its Him. What I’ve learned from this season, and will continue to learn, is often pointed out to me by others, as I am unusually hardheaded (All of my family members are aggressively nodding their heads in agreement right now). As Paul states in Romans 9, we are simply the clay. There is no vase or pot that would say to its master, “Why have you made me for this purpose? I desire to be a cup or a plate.” No, instead the master chooses what He desires it to be and the vase or bowl simply fulfills that purpose. Do I always sing for joy when I realize what God asks of me? No, sadly not every situation is what I would have picked, but what I’ve seen Him do in situations where I’ve been obedient to do as He’s asked, be it to stay put, or move, has changed my character. And THAT my friends, is worth my pain or frustration EVERY time.